my gift..my life..thanking god
Monday, January 29, 2007
m tired..but i need to write this..
Reply:
nope it aint the people who are drifting away..
wat made us stick together is no longer there..
just like glue will lose its strengh when mixed with water..
we just have lost our "togetherness" once the tide of life washes us away..
we have a choice at times and some other times we don't have must..
I understand how much you must have done..and m proud of u
i m sorry for not doing much..
somethimes some currents are too strong..they wash us away in a blink of an eye..
that is the ocean called life my dear..
sadly..that is the ocean we dwell in..
LOVE PSP..
wanna say tanks to HUI YEN for your effort on the video..it was great..
MANDY..for doing practically the whole script for out batch..
And the other PSP memebers who did their parts..
TO lydia..no matter wad you do..
we will be behind you..
we love you to the bottom of our hearts..
thanks for putting me in a special corner of your lives
have been thinking...
how many maskes have we pastered onto our faces..
when will it all vanish and show our true colours..
maskes you have,
throw them fast..
before they stick and
forever last..
How the week went:
got ring stuck on finger..had to take it out by force..(love my mum)
asked someone for forgiveness and spoke wat was in my heart( after a very long time)
went to uncles open house..love family..had a smashing time..larfed loads... m ashamed can't speak tamil beautifully...
..realised that i must make time..
din worry about any ting..
trust allah alot..more than i have in my entire life time (alhamdurillah..)
LOVE my family, friends..PSP..Lydia,farah, nasreen, nasloon, naz...samantha, kim disha, sam, miru, mardhiah, devi ..tamil NYJC class..and mjc ics..
``grateful for today..toodles ; 6:04 AM
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Thursday, January 25, 2007
Today we saw the video again.. Yima, Mandy. Hui Yen and I..we saw..we emoed! and yeah..it was sad...
M greatful..
On the way home..i was tinking..and stuff..
would it really be good if we went back to sikkim again
would it be the same?
we keep promising that we will do it..
the next moment our words fade..
the 2nd moment we even ask the other..
DID I REALLY SAY THAT?..I MUST BE NUTS
No actually it is me..i m nuts to fall for that trick again..
how many times have these promises been broken..
i too a couple of times..
i too
Today sara said somthing that startled me..
He said "That smile always means something"
(or something like that)
and the most weirdest thing is that Ameer also said the exact same words
Years before..
haha..
startling..coz little people notice..haha how much a smile cld mean..
little..nope not a few...
not little as in tiny but those who really notice..yeah..
haha..
yeah so true...
i remember that there was once Disha and I larfed coz we failed chem..we larfed out loud..
haha..not coz it din hurt..it did..but it was easier to larf then cry..
sometimes one can smile to replace many tears..sometimes..
a smile can speak a thousand words...
but are you willing to listen? to the unsaid words...
to its silent meaning?..
haha..look beyond the smile..youll find a greater definition and perhaps..
Perhaps
a smile is just a smile
always smile
MEANING:
YOu will never find out wad im thinking..
try harder..
``grateful for today..toodles ; 5:00 AM
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Friday, January 19, 2007
alhamdurillah..thank you allah..for guiding me..
i have fallen in love..and i have fallen hard...thanking my lord for guiding me..
i have fallen for my lord..haha..how much more love can i get?!
thanking my lord...
i love sam eng...thanks sam..so nice seeing you after so long
love you and trust me if there is anyone who doesn't..
its their loss..
i have gained coz of your presence
4 people made me tink today..
loga: for his compassion and thoughtfulness...
Rei: for his kindness and understandin
sam: for just being herself..
sami yusuf: for his passion for islam..i have yet to gain..
thanking everyone who has made my life wonderful..
PSP..edex..sam..kim..disha..samantha..mard..devi..miru..
lydia..renu..nas
raja..nasloon..
and anyone i have not mentioned but knows that they mean alot to me..
and Allah..
``grateful for today..toodles ; 5:04 AM
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Actually...
if i really sat down and thought about it...
i would say this year would have been a sucky year if it had not been for...
PSP
no really...thank you guys big time..i mean i can be an idiot most of the time..haha but these guys just rawked..
my biggest fear... was that we would get on with life.. forget each other..ignore each other.. and pretend we never ever met each other..( always has happened so far..donno how people do it but they just do..some at least)
but it never happened this way..my worse fears were proven wrong.. which makes me wonder y i hadn't really opened up much during the first part of the trip..i wasn't shy..just afraid...had many trust broken..fragile and pretending to be strong..i din wanna hurt..not one more time..rather get tru it..and be happy.. then go tru it..fall in straight and lose everything at one go..
But these people i really love.. their strenght, smiles and mostly their warmth... i can't possibly single out anyone whose smile i haven fallen for and love i haven't felt.. thank you guys.. and i really mean it.. thanks for making me feel right even when times are wrong.. giving me the light and pillar of support... you guys might tink u haven't done much..but really you guys have..even by waving a hi and saying gd morning..LOVE YOU ALL... hope this will never fade..
As time and god are the best healers.. i can't possibly tank them both.. firstly for giving me strenght throught such wonderful people even in the midst of uncertainty and darkness..
Thank you all.. Love ya
``grateful for today..toodles ; 4:18 AM
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Friday, January 05, 2007
Sikkim India...in a word it rawks..For so many reasons..for so many things...
I luv Pira Se Pal India...in random order:
first snowfall..first shooting star..first snowcapped mountain..haha first time cooking for many people..first time washing toilet with 2 others...first incident with spiders as big as my palm..first time in a clod place with temp hitting -1..haha first time seeing teachers support someting wrong..haha..yeah and first time falling in love with 16 great people at one time..
Mr Victor: for your compassion, for your hardwork..for going wacky..for introducing and giving your best for us..for getting us there and getting us back and always trying to make us better...for telling us when we are wrong and giving full support during our cooking times..for agreeing that the potatoes were...(overcooked...haha)...burnt..and for laughters and joy
Mr Yeo: for your determination, even when it was hard...you neva gave up..for thinking i was serious..haha i wasn't..for being wacky at the craziest of times..yeah and for picking my breakfast bar up..haha i was stuggling and sad..and for just being there..for slowing down just to let us pass..for joining me walk behind ms anne..haha and for trying to sing hoo la lal la..
Miss Anne: For being so down to earth, supportive and determined..for just larfing with us on the most random of tings..for being part of us as a friend, more than a teacher.. for being just there.. helping us in every possible way. (eg.cleaning the kitchen)..for listening to me claim that u love me many a time and not denying it..as well as for getting high with us...love ya..
Arch: caring, loverble.. words don't describe my feelings..thanks for being there and giving me moral support.and u rawk..4knowing that i m pissed and understanding and i m so sorry for everything i did that might have hurt ya..thanks gal for going out of ur way..understand how hard it must have been..BUT u did a great job and u r a gr8 pal.grew closer to u.LOVE YA a million times..
Nazrin: haha HOO LA LAL LA..haha yeah i gotta knoe u much betta..We have so much in common.. thank you for ur support, your enthusiasim and giving your best shot..you did a great job..and i have learnt much from you..both religion wise and when it comes to respondsibility.. go gal..go..you are great just as you are..haha and we tink so alike..haha LOVE ya..
JIA Ci: now where do i start..at the times when you just tickled my bones by just being hungry, sleeping like a long like me..for playing bridge and eating the sour tings wondering y r u getting hungrier haha but most of all singing and making a recket in the kitchen..haha..for being yourself no matter wad time of the day and for giving your best shot..you cook good darling..LOve ya
Yi Teng: haha u rawk and get high at the most awkwardest of times..your singing.. thanks for putting your heart and soul in wad eva you do..and for being the best guy's height..haha for giving me a helping hand wheneva you could..for making the same racket in the kitchen everytinme we need to cook..and for understanding...LOVE YA!
Mandy/Si Hui: my angel..so pretty and i m still surprised..btw i told my frens u hav no BF we are all surprised..POTENTIAL GF,to guys out there..she just rawks..anyways i tink i really grew closer to you the last few days..your smartness, determination, reflectiveness, always helping people..thanks gal..for being wacky and we are in the same boat..nd a fren u have me!!LOVE u
Hui Yen: Crazy gal..who is so out there..so many characters..strong yet soft..man you are a great person to be with..brightening everyones life by just being urself..giving ur best shot..thanks for being high all the time even when u are down..for your passion and for going and going for the best..for being wacky and respondsible and caring...thanks..LOVE you..
Ben: Haha..For being a great guy who is becoming a man..haha for fun, laughter and joy..for taking the lead in treking and cooking(man u are gd) and washing the toilet..for stinking up the toilet and having no water to pour! and for crapping half the time..for winning the first few bridge games and tolerating our nonsense..THanks man..you rawk..
Yi hui: caring, compassionate, selfless, motherly, out going, down to earth..giving ur best..for being the best..for smiling when u are down..for helping someone worst off..for crapping half of the time and for just being there..for opening up and opening people up..for ur hugs warmth and larfter..thanks gal..thanks YI ma..LOVE YOu
Hui shan: wow..donno where to start..thanks for insulting me and letting me insult u..thanks for being thick skinned and sittin out of the bridge games..thanks for not copying my GP even when i offered..haha kidding..and thanks for being there to pull me up when i needed someone badly..thanks for making me smile, go mad and nuts..haha Lov U lar..auntie broom!
Sun Yu: scandalous..wacky..nutty..high..sentimental..being a great person who helps..and being a great spot..for being respondsible and sending smses even at NIGHT 1 plus!! madness..haha but i m okey wif it! haha for arranging chotic get-togethers and for fun laughter and joy..thanks for tahaning our nonsense(triangle, square?) haha..and letting us into ur life..LOVE u
Xue wei: eek?! y? Y? haha man u make me larf my head off and we can form a team just to bully hui shun..thanks man for helping me..standing by me when i needed someone..teaching me the dance steps and bullying me too!! haha man.. but wad would i do w/o u? haha thanks for ur nonsense..enthuness and wildness..haha LOVe u man
Mei Hung: thanks for giving in your best..being my buddy..i m a pretty difficult buddy btw and being patient with wad life has given..for being an extremely enthusiastic person..PSP sikkim wouldbe different w/o u..for making great sago malacca..for being open and frank and you draw great!! you are great!
``grateful for today..toodles ; 3:24 AM
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